I’m Famous Now


This is Eric Durcholz aka Patrick John Coleman. He says he’s a shaman. He’s obsessed with narcissists. He’s also a notorious chicken hawk. The idiot who calls me fat is named Wiley. He’s a pyromaniac and he’s fond of knives.



That kid, Vetaliy, is dead now. He killed himself in a field somewhere in Washington. The last thing “Patrick” told him was to kill himself.



I’m an Idiot Now

While my majikal initiation/awakening was going on, all the math that I had learned past fourth grade was sucked out of my head to make room for new concepts. I have to relearn all of it, turning decimals into percents, mixed fractions, and everything else up through Geometry. Holy crap! My brain just isn’t wired for mathematics anymore.


Not that it ever really was. Math was just one of those subjects I had to take. Never really found it all that interesting. In fact I found it so boring that I had to repeat both Algebra 1 and Geometry. I mean, it wasn’t hard for me, it was just dull. I had doodles to draw, notes to pass, and daydreams to have.


I really hated school in general, except for certain subjects, past third grade. The kids were all bullies or nerds, and the teachers were just there for a paycheck.

A Tale of Two Burgers


One day, I felt the need to go up to my local Jack in the Box, so I did. When I goyt there I ordered my food to go. As I was waiting a man began to talk to me, and I took a good look at him and realized he was my ex lover Damian wearing a particularly horrifying glamour. He saw that I recognized him and smiled. They called his number, two Jumbo Jacks for here. He stood with his tray talking to me. Then he went over to the table by the door.


They called my number, I grabbed my food, and as I was going out the door, he grabbed my attention, thrust his tray out at me as though offering me one of his burgers, but I went out the door. I cried all the way home. I don’t know what path would have come to me if I had picked up one of the burgers, but I’m not Eve, and I don’t want one of Satan’s apples. Maybe my life would have been easier. Maybe I would have gotten dental help sooner. But at what cost?


My brother Jon almost ruined Prince for me. I had listened to Prince waaaay before I knew that Jon listened to him. I fucking loved him! But then Jon came back into my life, and steadly put the imprint of Prince upon himself till I almost couldn’t stand him anymore. But Prince was stronger than my brother, and defeated him.

Large Print Great Big Crosswords

I’m at the home stretch of this project. Its energy is very sluggish, thick, and painful. The crosswords are easy, but doing them gives me an uneasy feeling every time, so it’s been slow going.


I am currently burning a 7 Color Road Opener candle along with Santisima Muerte  and Saint Michael incense. I asked for the roads to open for me to begin clearing the negativity out of my house and my life. I have a quartz spear as well as three quassia chips in the candle, plus various condition oils.

A lot of spirits are passing through me today.


In the Beginning, there was the Word

It must have been easier to speak things into Creation when there was less going on on this planet. Now it takes months, sometimes, years, sometimes decades for things to manifest once they’ve been proclaimed. Sheesh! In order to expedite the process, one has to will themselves into heavy insanity in order to hold the realms of time and space. I’ve done it once. I don’t know if I can take it again.


Been Repenting

I spent this morning repenting. I have dreamed up some really horrific shit that has manifested in this world.

However, I still maintain that people have Free Will and they can choose the path they truly wish to lead.


My Kali days are behind me, but I am still a Will Worker. I can’t just shut that off, so I’ve turned my attention inward and am now Working on myself. A lot of people are pissed about this, because I cannot stand lies or falsehoods of any kind. I also cannot stand thievery, racism, sexism, or homophobia. When my mother passes I will no longer eat animal products. I’m already beginning to switch to Cruelty Free Makeup, even though any decent kind is expensive.

I really dislike people who wear fur. There is so much information out there about how cruel the fur trade is, and yet these people continue to buy it. Not too thrilled with the rich these days.

Projects and Books

In the order that they shall be done:

  1. Large Print Great Big Crosswords
  2. “Wicked Charms”
  3. Mastering Essential Math Skills: Decimals and Percents
  4. “In the Still of the Night”
  5. Good Spells for Bad Days: Broken Hearts, Bounced Checks, and Bitchy Co-Workers – Simple Magick to Fix Any Misfortune
  6. Bunny Tales
  7. The Emerald Tablet of Hermes and The Kybalion
  8. Unicorns are Jerks coloring book
  9. Cholesterol Down
  10. The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People
  11. Think and Grow Rich
  12. The Weight Loss Cure “They” Don’t Want You to Know About
  13. Son of Rosemary
  14. Warrior Goddess Training
  15. Warrior Goddess Training Companion Workbook
  16. A Dictionary of Angels
  17. A Field Guide to Demons
  18. Moonchild (Kenneth McKenney)
  19. Moonchild (Crowley)
  20. Audrey Rose
  21. Illuminatium
  22. What Remains
  23. Candide
  24. The Dead Sea Scrolls; A New Translation
  25. The Secret Teachings of All Ages
  26. The Secret Destiny of America
  27. Propaganda
  28. John Adams
  29. Truman
  30. Dark Alliance, The CIA, the Contras, and the Crack Cocaine Explosion
  31. Chakra Clearing
  32. A Beginner’s Guide to the Chakras
  33. Mathematics, Grade 5
  34. Mastering Essential Math Skills (Grades 4 & 5)
  35. Harcourt School Publisher’s Math, Student Edition, Grade 6
  36. The Zodiac and the Salts of Salvation
  37. Hollywood Babylon II
  38. The Electric Koolaid Acid Test
  39. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
  40. John Lydon: Stories of Johnnie
  41. The Hollywood Book of Extravagance
  42. The Emotional Tone Scale
  43. Get Anyone to do Anything: Never Feel Powerless Again
  44. You Can Read Anyone
  45. The Cryptoterrestrials
  46. House of Hilton
  47. Crazy Rich: Power, Scandal and Tragedy Inside the Johnson and Johnson Dynasty
  48. Rush to Judgement
  49. Hoodoo Bible Magic
  50. The Tujunga Canyon Contacts
  51. Keep the Faith: A Memoir
  52. Unhexing and Jinx Removing Spells
  53. Jitterbug Perfume
  54. Captains and Kings
  55. The Trial of Henry Kissinger
  56. My Booky Wook
  57. Booky Wook 2
  58. Memnoch the Devil
  59. The Celestine Prophecy
  60. The Encyclopedia of Dreams
  61. The Tale of the Body Thief
  62. The Federal Reserve Cartel
  63. The Encyclopedia of Demons and Demonology
  64. The Djinn Connection
  65. The Trillion Dollar Conspiracy
  66. The Earthsea Quartet
  67. The Book of Thoth
  68. The A-Z Encyclopedia of Serial Killers
  69. The Hastur Cycle
  70. Mexican Spiritualism
  71. Hoodoo Honey and Sugar Spells
  72. The Conjure Workbook Volume 1 Working the Root
  73. Illusions
  74. White Oleander
  75. The Complete Illustrated Encyclopedia of Magical Plants
  76. Understanding Aleister Crowley’s Thoth Tarot
  77. Every Tongue Got to Confess
  78. Their Eyes were Watching God
  79. The Nag Hammadi Scriptures
  80. The Gospel of Thomas
  81. The Book of Enoch
  82. Book 4
  83. The Believing Brain
  84. The Only Grammar Book You’ll Ever Need
  85. The Elements of Grammar
  86. Don’t Panic: The Procrastinator’s Guide to Writing and Effective Term Paper
  87. The Devil in White City
  88. A Manual for Writers of Term Papers
  89. Our Haunted Planet
  90. Bestial
  91. Psycho U.S.A.
  92. Math Made Easy, Fifth Grade Workbook
  93. The Lost Symbol
  94. Mass Control: Engineering Human Consciousness
  95. Genesis Revisited
  96. The Shining
  97. Cellar of Horror
  98. Born Evil: A True Story of Cannibalism and Serial Murder
  99. Small Sacrifices
  100. Inferno
  101. Cosmic Code
  102. When Time Began
  103. The Epic of Gilgamesh
  104. The Lost Realms
  105. Dreamwatcher
  106. Flicker
  107. Eye
  108. The Dune Encyclopedia
  109. Heretics of Dune
  110. Chapter House: Dune
  111. Solving the Communion Enigma
  112. The Grays
  113. The Truth Behind the Men in Black
  114. The Master Key System
  115. Joyland
  116. The Complete Books of Charles Fort
  117. Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children
  118. Death and Destruction (Talia Felix)
  119. The Want-Ad Killer
  120. Encyclopedia of Mystics, Saints, and Sages
  121. The Bipolar Disorder Survival Guide
  122. The Quick and Easy Way to Effective Speaking
  123. How to Win Friends and Influence People
  124. How to Stop Worrying and Start Living
  125. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
  126. Necronomicon Spellbook
  127. The Gates of the Necronomicon
  128. Charms Spells and Formulas
  129. Master Book of Candle Burning
  130. Protection and Reversal Magick
  131. Hoodoo Herb and Root Magic
  132. How to Talk to Anyone
  133. The Dark River
  134. The Golden City
  135. The Wars of Gods and Men
  136. The Satanic Bible
  137. The Science of Influence
  138. The Courage to Heal
  139. Earth, Air, Fire, Water
  140. Liber Null and Psychonaut
  141. Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming
  142. The Tibetan Yogas of Dream and Sleep
  143. Lucid Dreaming
  144. The Oxford Study Bible
  145. The Sea Priestess
  146. Pre Algebra Demystified
  147. Pre Algebra Practice Book
  148. Pre Algebra Homework Practice Workbook
  149. The One Year Manual

Should take me two or three years. Working backwards, stopping time in its tracks for a bit. Gonna see what happens. Will not be buying any books for a long ass time.


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